welcome back !

It's so great that I could finally sit here and type these words again .
I've been feeling so down and tired these days.
Prelims turned out to be bad. No 'A's . Only 'B's and 'C's .
I feel like all the effort that I have put in was not working . Or is it not enough ?
Well, my friends didn't work so hard and yet they've got higher score than mine.
Is that fair ? :(

Well , I suppose I have to work harder for my igcse but I have to put myself away from pressure and nervousness.
Oh God, please help me . pleeeasseee TT

Mr Gamae is back from his hometown and everybody was so glad.
Eventhough we often make fun of him , but now we know that we do love him very much.
He looks like the ussual him but we all know that he's feeling so weak.
And from what I know is that his mom passed away last week.
Feel so sorry for him TT
He's been suffering kidney failure. Both of his kidney is not working now. Well, it works, but only 15% !!!!
The treatment he's getting now is to wash his blood twice a week. The sad thing is that it only helps by 30% .
I don't know how will I go through my days if I were him. Maybe I'll be crying myself to sleep, locking myself alone in the room, rejecting food. Oh nooo !! TT
He also said that he can only drink 1.5 Litre of water each day. He has to eat much vegetables and fruits.
I don't know what to say anymore ..
All I know is I love him TT
Why do the feeling of regret always comes last ?

My class is trying to collect funds to help him in his treatment . We all know that it's not cheap.
So please, if you guys want to help, just try to reach me or Cathy or anyone from sec 4 peace. No matter how much you will give, we will appriciate it.
But don't tell him anything because we're planning this to be a surprise for him.

This was the message he sent to Cathy few hours ago..

"Be happy. I'm still okay. Thank you for your concern and sympathy. I need u and all ur classmates to be strong with me. Remember you still have to take the igcse."

I feel like curling myself up and cry. I do love him so much.
I've just realized it today and at this moment.
Please guys, I do need your help.

Thank You