aLL alone .. feeling so lonelyy ..

YEAH , does every brokenhearted people feels the same way as me ?
Why do I feel so lonely these days back ? As I've said in the last post, "Why do I have no one to turn to?"
Haven't been sleeping well few days back. This morning woke up at around 6 and felt painful in every part of my body. But I did go back to sleep. Even when I'm sleeping, I had no dreams. It was all black. I hate being alone in my room. I hate being treated this way. I hate having no one by my side. Oh God , what am I supposed to do ? :(

I entered my room and all I thought of is the memories we once had together ..
Threw myself to my bed and again , feel the pain in my heart. Tears started rolling down my cheek , then I tried to pull myself up to sit , I curled myself and cried as hard as I could. Wanting to call someone but didn't know who to call . I just don't want to bother my friends . They're too good for me . I don't want them to worry about me .

*FEELS GOOD SEEING ME LIKE THIS , HUH ?*

Am I acting so different after that tragedy happened? Isn't this what I want?
Right , I do want everything to be like this . It's what I chose and I believe it's the best .

TO : SOMEONE OUT THERE ..

Why do you ignore me so much ? Everytime you walk pass me, I've always wanted to say hi . But you didnt even glance at me . Is this the way u want us to be? I thought we want to be friends . U're just so wierd .
I dont know what to do anymore .. Maybe this is the best for us yeah? Fine :(