Should I or Shouldn't I ?

Right, eventho he's now back, I still can feel how far we are. How he's been so mean to me.
How he's been so bad. I love him so much, if he wants to know :(
Mom said I shud just ignore him. Well, I just can't.
I love him way too much. I don't feel like saying anything else.
Should I push myself to get over him? Will I ever forget him that easily?
I cried again last nite, knowing that he's never gonna be back to me ever ever again.
I hated myself so much.

I wanna do some shopping to get rid of this stress!!!
Going to Sency again tonight :) YEAH
Mom, I hope you'll let me buy anythinngg I want. I love you
I want maxi dresses!! You know, those beautiful and long dress. haha. I heart it :)
Have to go to zara later on. Bebe too!
Gucci's on sale, babyyy . Omg, I want the purse, I want the bag! I want something to put my car keys! hahaha
I wish I were a millionaire :)
Fine, I'm going crazy now :)
I love shopping ! haha

LOVE,
CHYNTIA