Why?

I don't have much things to say. I guess I'll just give you an update on my grandma's condition. Please forgive me for these boring things but this is my blog, I write what I feel like writing.

Yesterday her response rate went up to 19 (from 14)
She could finally open her eyes for 1 or 2 seconds but she's not awake yet. I called her again and again, I told her to come back. But "I love You" just couldn't come out of my mouth. I regret.
Today I didn't get the chance to see her because I was late. That fucking traffic jam has caused me to go wild. I hate Jakarta.
But what I heard about her today is that her response rate went up in the afternoon, but in the evening, just before I came, it was ONLY 13. Decreased by 1 point which actually means a lot to me. I don't know what else to say. I just feel sorry, I feel sad. Everything happened out of a sudden. I can't take this anymore.
Would anyone tell me when this is gonna end? And what will the ending be?

Second sad thing today.
A friend of mine, a new friend I suppose. He's close to someone in LL.
He left today. Went to USA. Haiya, padahal I haven't even meet him. Talk to him only twice or 3 times. I don't know.
It's just a very short time. Take care, my friend! I know you'll be reading this post :)

Goodnight people.
Don't forget to pray for my grandma..

LOVE