Reality♥

I didn't go to church this morning. So as last week. I feel guilty for that. sob*
I don't understand why things are just not in proper places. I'm losing him soon I know that. But I need a reason why he's leaving me, I need an explanation. I've fallen so deep you see, and now he leaves me here like a piece of shit that nobody wants. I can pretend like I don't care, like I'm not hurt but I just can't get rid of this pain in my heart. I've been dreaming of him every time I sleep. I can't take it anymore. He texted me two days ago, he apologized bcoz he wasn't able to reply my messages these days back. He's been busy. I was chatting with him on MSN till I asked him whether he's mad. At last, he didn't reply. I really need to know the reality!!! :(

2nd thing is the fact that I'm leaving soon
Yeah, I'll be going to Australia to continue my studies. I'll be going with Cathy and Andrew though so I'm not really worried about it.
I just can't get myself be separated from LL ..
I miss LL *sigh*
You girls are the best gift that God has given to me. We've been together since we were in sec 1. Not for Jesy though, she came in when we were in sec 3. I had a fight with the others, I had bad times. But then we were strong enuf to get everything back together. I love LL way too deep. I can't live without you girls. sob

I wish I could just turn back time.
When that happens, everything will be just fine.


PS:
Aunt never fails to cry. Everything reminds her of my grandma :(
I miss grandma too! aaaahh