Bad day

I’m sobbing :(
Things have gotten so wrong I don’t know why. I swear I never expected such things to happen.
First was I said something that hurts his feeling. It was meant to be a joke. But yeah, I was wrong. I apologized for that but we went thru damn hard times.
I cried too. Shit man, I’m so emotional nowadays.
Do I really love him that much? It’s like our 4th day you see, and I’m crying for things already. WTH

I don’t know if this case is still important to him. But just imagine, emm, take it this way. There’s a girl that you really hate, dislike, detest, disgust, etc. and she has always been coming into your lives and ruining your love lives, going close to your friends, etc.
And now that girl is really disturbing your relationship, your ‘very new’ relationship.
I tell you wad, he’s been texting with her since he went back from school maybe until now. I just don’t get it okay? I know maybe the things they’re talking about are unimportant. But still, I’m HURT.
I’m not looking for problems or wad, it’s just that I can never give tolerance for problems that involve this girl.
I hate her too much I don’t give a damn of how people would think about this girl. She can pretend like she’s very innocent, when deep down she’s not.
If one day me and him would end, I bet it will be because of her. Yeah.
I don’t get it, I never expect that things will go this wrong. I never thought that I’m becoming emotional, I cry for little things, I’m mad at stupid things. I just hate myself for it. I can’t take this anymore.
I’m keeping this on my own, I ain’t gonna tell him, I don’t want to mess up things again.
IT’S ENOUGH!!!!!!!!!!!