I'm in love with those 2 songs. 3 actually, the other one is Vanilla Twilight by Owl City. But can't copy paste the lyrics now I'll do it some other day.

Just finished webcam-ing with my family. dad,mom,sister,aunt,and Nicho. Oh Lord how I miss my baby. Looking at my sister hugging and carrying nicho made me jealous =\

I do wanna tell you guys about my uni life but now is just not the right time. I'm feeling f-ed up I shall go to bed after this post. I miss someone badly can't help it. Now I don't see the point of new life anymore. because in the end I still miss people who I'm not suppose to miss. Please do not assume anything alright. PLEASE.

I have a lottt in my mind but I just don't know how to express them in words. I really wish I were in Indo right now. At least being in my own bed would give me the comfort nobody else could give me. and being around my family and those little kids.

Chinese new year and Valentine's coming. 1st time celebrating them without my family. Last year's valentine's was perfect. I was the happiest princess on earth. This year? I don't hope, I don't expect. Because when I do, people will let me down and hurt me, and I don't heal fast from pain. I've got enough of everything. Enough of being completely alone for almost a week. I had no one to talk to, no one to tell my stories to. I'm all alone. on my own.

I really have gone through a whole load of things that a 16 year old shouldn't have gone through. But I still feel like I'm not strong enough. why? why am I still being so vulnerable? why can't I build walls and armors? why do I have to let ppl hurt me? why do I trust so easily? why do I put hopes on everything?

I guess there are still a lot more to learn. Turning 17 in 14 days, 2 weeks. when I turn into a lady I shall have my armors done. I shall not let ppl come in and hurt me then go just like that. Lord, please give me strength. Please.