Wad can I say? I'm feeling damn lonely. Yeah I do. I need some company, I need friends that I can talk to. I miss S too!
I've been reading our MSN chat history thou. We were so close, we cared for each other. And he's been so kind, he's been such a company for me. But not for now. Am I losing him? I'd rather have him in where he's supposed to be. Eventhough he's now in Indo, I'm just getting further from him. Yeah he's busy with his other friends and stuff. He DID say that he wants to meet me, he'll be spending more time with me(and my friends) rather than his friends and all. Well, it turns out to be bullshit, huh?
I'm so afraid that he'll fall on someone else whom I know. I mean like, don't you feel the great pain when someone you like, turn out to be in love with your friend and stuff? Yeah maybe I'm thinking way too off. Sigh*

School's re-opening tomorrow. Hope that some good things will happen. I hate myself for the fact that I always expect too much for anything. Why don't I learn from past mistakes? Someone, please tell me what to do. I really need some company.


PS: Last year's 13 July, I broke up with Terry. haha. Today's our 1st anniversary then :)